Tuesday, November 4, 2014

It was time for a change again.

It's that time of the year, when your mind gets a little darker. But it has been sneaking up on me for a long time now... and I hope that this time - it is here to stay!
I miss the all-black-everything. I keep drooling over pictures on tumblr.

For the 100th time, I have decided what to do with my hair... (or have I?) Well, it is back to that plan I had last autumn - growing it long. Looong. No dreads. I want it long, wavy, shiny and above all, comfortable to sleep on and easy to wash.
I am thinking of trying Lush henna "caca noir". I feel that my hair is still a bit crappy since all that bleaching, so natural colours would be best. That would be best for my overall health anyway.
Those chemicals. *sigh*

Lush Caca Noir - henna, indigo and other goodies.

I've been home from work for about 6 weeks now. At last I went to the doctor and got the help I needed, so now I'm taking medicin for anxiety/depression. The medicin can make your anxiety much worse for a few weeks and it may not help at all for up to 3-6 months. I feel a little better from time to time, but I still have nightmares and some other issues... I know, it sounds wonderful. ;)

On thursday I'm seeing a psychologist of sorts. We'll see how that works out... I'm sceptical.

I have a few projects I want to play around with at home. Fixing my lamp, a little table and a bureau. The pictures in my head of these things are so damn pretty, but I can't seem to get to work with it.
One day! Right?

Drooling objects from my tumblr.


  1. I hope the medicine helps, anxiety is super sucky! If you get the right psychiatrist who actually knows how to deal with anxiety it can be good! Focus on your projects or just giving yourself rest if you need it! Hugs!

    1. Thank you! Yeah, let's hope she's a good one. ^^
      Rest... what is that? ;D It's weird how you can be home all day long, and you dont feel rested.

  2. Oh, this sounds awful; anxiety paired with nightmares is fucked up; I hope you'll find the right psychiatrist, who then finds the right treatment for your anxiety, but in my experience, keeping busy and focusing on things you love and enjoy doing can help getting better as well. I personally believe, that Tumblr is a good treatment for a bad day...;)

    1. You said it! ^^ I hope so too, even if I, at the same time, have no idea how this is going to help. Talking to someone that is.
      Yeah, like WoW, escape from reality - but then I get stressed, because there are "better" things to be done. xD (One of my issues, lol)

      Yeah, it really is! :) "Nothing says more than a picture" - is very true.

  3. Hoppas medicinen för depressionen hjälper, det är hemskt att må psykiskt dåligt verkligen :<

    1. Det är det. :/ Jag hoppas också att den ska börja hjälpa snart. Förstår inte hur det kan ta upp till 6 månader för en medicin att verka... fast man kanske inte vill veta egentligen, vad den gör med stackars hjärnan. x)

    2. Nej det är sant, jag vill inte tänka på vad mina mediciner jag tar för det ena och andra håller på med egentligen O.O