A change of heart...

...again.
I am getting a little bit tired of myself when it comes to apperance. Looks. Style.
It's been sneaking up on me these last weeks, the darkness. Yes, let us call it darkness.
The black clothes, the long - long - pretty hair wich you can make amazing looks with, the make-up, etc... I miss it. I miss it alot.
I found myself looking in the mirror the other day and I was standing there, wondering, why did I make these "dreads"? I want my long, shiny hair back.
And whenever I take on a top or a t-shirt, or even pants, that are light in color, I dont really feel like myself... I dont like it at all.
So back to the old me.
I think I am going to brush my dreads out again. So now I've tried it twice and still like my non-dreaded hair more. So I guess I'll stick to that. I really hope I do this time!
The only good thing about this is that I have'nt really bought anything that I regreted.

I'm still at my dad's place, where there is absolutly nothing to do = too much time to think about stuff. About everything. Well, the weather is pretty nice and I was suppose to get a little tanned and stuff, but I realised - for the 20th time - that I dont like the summerheat! And the bugs! I hate it.
The nature is green and pretty tho. :)

I just had to write this down somewhere, since there is no CATARINA here! *Hint* :P
I had to complain and think out loud. So there it was.

I also have decided to take some courses in school, to learn how to really draw, paint and write.
I'd still like to be an tattoo-artist and/or a write or painter (artist). Whatever makes me able to throw my ideas and fantasy out there, on a paper or on a persons skin. :)

Now I'm going to continue drinking my cold, tasty beer and keep looking on the internet for anything interesting. Anything really. I've watched ALOT of movie this week and it's getting a bit boring. Even if it's good movies.