Friday, July 19, 2013

A change of heart...

...again.
I am getting a little bit tired of myself when it comes to apperance. Looks. Style.
It's been sneaking up on me these last weeks, the darkness. Yes, let us call it darkness.
The black clothes, the long - long - pretty hair wich you can make amazing looks with, the make-up, etc... I miss it. I miss it alot.
I found myself looking in the mirror the other day and I was standing there, wondering, why did I make these "dreads"? I want my long, shiny hair back.
And whenever I take on a top or a t-shirt, or even pants, that are light in color, I dont really feel like myself... I dont like it at all.
So back to the old me.
I think I am going to brush my dreads out again. So now I've tried it twice and still like my non-dreaded hair more. So I guess I'll stick to that. I really hope I do this time!
The only good thing about this is that I have'nt really bought anything that I regreted.

I'm still at my dad's place, where there is absolutly nothing to do = too much time to think about stuff. About everything. Well, the weather is pretty nice and I was suppose to get a little tanned and stuff, but I realised - for the 20th time - that I dont like the summerheat! And the bugs! I hate it.
The nature is green and pretty tho. :)

I just had to write this down somewhere, since there is no CATARINA here! *Hint* :P
I had to complain and think out loud. So there it was.

I also have decided to take some courses in school, to learn how to really draw, paint and write.
I'd still like to be an tattoo-artist and/or a write or painter (artist). Whatever makes me able to throw my ideas and fantasy out there, on a paper or on a persons skin. :)

Now I'm going to continue drinking my cold, tasty beer and keep looking on the internet for anything interesting. Anything really. I've watched ALOT of movie this week and it's getting a bit boring. Even if it's good movies.

15 comments:

  1. Vad har du sett för filmer? :D *alltid på filmjakt*

    Hoppas du kommer känna dig nöjd när du borstat ur dreadsen sen! Du har så långt och vackert hår :D

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    1. Det hoppas jag med! Och tack! :D

      Hmm, såg en del filmer... de jag kommer ihåg är:
      Hannibal,
      Hannibal Rising, skulle haft Silence of the Lambs också, men hade inte den. (Stora favoriter!)
      G.I. Joe 2, ganska tuff men inte riktigt min smak.
      Twilight (räckte att man såg den EN gång dock) ;P
      The Raven, skitbra, utspelar sig under 1800-talet om skräckförfattaren Allen E. Poe. :)
      Pirates of the caribbean 1 och 2
      Night Watch, rysk vampyr/häxor/onda-krafter-film. Helt retarderad, men tuff :D
      Kommisarie Späck
      Hangover 2
      The Golden Compass <3
      Hellboy
      Tropic Thunder, sjuk komedi

      Inga nya filmer alltså, men man har ju aldrig sett ALLT. :)

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  2. Hoppas att det går vägen med utkamningen. Har du kommit i höststämning?

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    1. I hope so too! ^^ Jag tror jag har det redan fakttiskt. :D Saknar verkligen kylan, löven, dimman... Och en del gula löv yr ju redan omkring här, känns lite för tidigt, men gör mig inget!

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  3. Ooooh, I like your dreads! But still, I feel the same way when I make a big change with my hair - I almost always wish I hadn't!

    Bugs and heat and sweating ... yech. New art courses sound like fun though!

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    1. I like them too, really, but I like my long normal hair even more. ^^ I guess I'm like that too. I didnt think I was tho, hehe

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  4. I like your dreads, but I totally understand you. I hate big changes in my looks too, I was thinking about changing my hair color for almost a year before I did it, and I still miss black sometimes...

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    1. Ah, black, I think of black hair too, but then again - red is as nice as black! ^^ Tho, thank god we have bleaching and stuff to use, just in case! :D

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  5. Honey I'm home!!!
    Nu tar vi det igen frugan...alla vägar leder tillbaka till rockstilen. Det är sådana vi är.

    Kamma ur dreadsen, behåll färgen i håret för den klär dig och på med svart i kläder ;) tada!!!!

    Btw dina behåar har kommit!!!

    Skola säger jag, go for it! Lev ut dina drömmar.

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    1. Yaay! <3
      Haha, I knåw, men ibland behöver man förändring... eller ja, tydligen bara att vilja ha det, men inte att GÖRA en förändring. xD

      Japp, tänkte detsamma! Men jag har blivit lite småförtjust i mörkrött hår...

      Oh! Glöm dem inte när du kommer den 5e <3 :D

      Skola ja, skööönt att slippa jobb och AF, MEN, pengar...Men nångång i framtiden ska jag gå de kurserna! Jag är fortfarande på det vi pratade om. Har du funderat något? :)

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  6. Jag har funderat en hel del faktiskt.
    Det lockar mer och mer.
    Har du?

    Jag är sugen på knallrött hår!!

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    1. Me 2, me 2. Hela tiden... nästan! ^^
      Oh, ja rött är så jäkla snyggt! Men testa kopparrött först, sen kan du ju bara färga över rödare, blir ju ingen skillnad, så har du testat båda :D

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  7. Btw inte den 5e utan 2-4 augusti
    Den helgen baby kommer jag ;)

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    1. Ah ja, såg det i almanackan! :D Vilken konstigt ord, almanacka... haha

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