Oriental dancing deep into the woods... in Sweden.

My absolute favorite blogger Jonna never seeze to amaze me.
She made a video with her dancing in the woods, with sweet Nanook in the background. ;D

Youtube: "Bollywood á la Norrland"

Here's her instagram with the most amazing photos of nature. I drool a little everytime I see her pics.


While northern Sweden has great, sunny weather, we down here still have rain. A LOT of rain. And a little thunder from time to time. I wont complain. My anxiety for sitting here by the computer, is not as bad when the weather is bad. xD

Random life update;
This week I will meet with my contact person of the "unemployment office" to decide what to do this summer. I will probably pic the "practise work" at a second hand store not far from here. It will be perfect! ^^
After summer we will discuss my future education. Hurray! 

Life at the moment

Is pretty good!
I changed "looking-for-a-job"-office to this town now, so I don't have to go back & forth between towns. It's a pain in the *ss & it costs money. Plus, this awesome town does not have an activity where grown-up's have to sit all day long on their asses "searching for jobs". Thank you! That kind of activity is god damn pointless! As if we don't have better things to do.
Anywho, I will meet my new contact person soon, so that we can talk about my future. :)

I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do... A lot. When I wake up, when I go to bed.
My dream is to do what I'm good at, what I can imagine doing the rest of my life - create stuff!
That category includes a lot of things though. ;D
Draw & paint, design & make clothes, design & make home decorations, fix old furniture & even make my own, make jewelry.
But most of all - become a tattoo artist. Well, all of the above would be so much fun, but being a tattoo artist is probably the easiest way to make a living.

In the wait of money to buy fabric, drawing materials, paint etc, I've started to draw again. It's so easy to draw when you have something to draw, obviously, but I can't seem to get the images in my head down on paper... so I always give up after a while. I'll try to continue this time...

The fabric I'm buying is for clothes! Mhm, I don't like what I see in the stores & have to make my own now! :D Not everything looks bad though, but I mostly buy clothes because I have to, not because I like it.



Me & Sister are once again planning on losing weight, well, that was the plan all along, but you know... candy tastes awesome! My "fall back" periods are getting shorter & shorter though, so I hope I will stop craving sugar completely in the end.
My darling Catta invited me to go to Cypress in Greece this summer, so I have a goal now, well - a new goal!

Tonight's sketches.

Pinterest taught me how to make huge, pretty eyes!

Sunset back in march (only a month too late).

Btw, today we had beautiful warm weather - 20 C! 

Spending time outside in a tanktop & bare legs - in April. <3

And this is my little woodland. :)

Early Autumn

What wonderfull weather we have!
Windy, leaves are falling, sunny but a bit chilly... it's just great. :)
I just found this beautiful photo on tumblr...

...everything looks so calm. There's frost and it's cold. Everything is still.

I want to be there, watching the deers, with a camera and a warm scarf. And after a long walk in the woods I would go back to my cabin, sit infront of the fireplace and drink hot chocolate, with my dogs and blankets.

Tumblr is my biggest inspiration. I sit here every morning, drinking my huge cup of coffee and watch photos like these. It is what keeps me going. What will keep me going until that day - the day I will move far, far north.

I need a major change. I find myself trying to change the little things. I dye my hair red - now I want it brown. I took out my 16 mm earplugs - I wanted smaller ones. I tried my 14 mm's - they fit and I'm happy with them. For now. I want to remove my septum - I'm not a huge fan of piercings anymore. But what if I change my mind? It freaking hurts to re-make it.
I wanted all black clothes. I wanted to decorate my whole bedroom in dark things. Now I dont know what I want. 

I'm in such desperate need of a change, that I try to change these little things. Constantly. And I get mad with myself.

Why can't I just be?

And why are we people so scared of getting rid of things? I need to throw out half my wardrobe, but I dont. I'm scared that one day I will want to wear that old hoodie. But I know I wont.

I want to sell all the shit we own, use the money to move away from here, but I dont. We dont. Why?

Why is the freaking TV so important?!

God. I just want to live in a simple cabin in the woods, with that fireplace. 

But then, the next day, I decide that I cant live without internet or movies. 

So here I am, no idea what I want or what to do.

But on the other hand I have my work. It ends in 6 months. Then I'm free. But what if I cant save enough move until then, to move? 

Moo.

So! We are moving about 10 km north of here this saturday, about 15 minutes driving. We hope we can make it in only one day. Moving is a pain in the ass, but very fun afterwards! Decorating! :D
The heating system in this house is very expensive and our landlady is thinking about selling the house. She told us she had another house for us if we were interested, and we were. :)
So Saturday it is!

You all know by now that I dont want to live down here, and 10 km north is'nt very far, is it? xD
I'm employed until february next year - then we will start looking for a new home, hopefully a permanent one.

But yeah, we decided to move now anyway, even if we're not staying there that long, because of autumn and winter. We dont want to freeze our asses of one. more. season.
Moving far, far north will cost a lot of money, so we will have to save all we can - and that takes time.

Ze internet will be back on tuesday, if everything goes as planned - wich is rarely does when it comes to technical crap!
Anywho - I'll see you when I see you. :)

From my tumblr

I want winter.

But first, I want autumn. A long, sunny, colourfull autumn.

I dont like the summer as much as I would like to... 

I'd like to live in the woods. Right now.

(tumblr)

A few inspiring pictures...

This is when you wish there was a "reblog all" button on Tumblr.

Imaginery

Off to get x-rayd. X-raied? Exray?

What ever. As said before, english do not always agree with me.

Today I'm heading to the hospital to get an x-ray done for my poor shoulder - wich have been feeling fine, mostly, this last week.
But it comes and goes as it pleases.
I hope they find the cause. But I would not be surprised if they didn't find anything at all.

The alarm rang 4.20... god, that is way too early! I hope I make it trough the day...

One of my brave attempts(!) to photograph the moon... And that planet next to it! ;D

And now the summer is here - for real this time - so the nights are not dark anymore. It was a bit annoying last night. 1 hour before 12 it looked like the sun had just went down, everything was light blue... and the birds were singing! 

Gadgets... gadgets everywhere!

<--- I now have a gadget for translating the blog.
The translating isn't all that great, since my english is... not that great! xD

We had really nice weather today, maybe 20-25 c. Me and sis did some work in the garden, took 2 hours and there is more to do. Phew. Hopefully we'll get a nice tan! ;)

Beautiful sunset the other night

I think I've seen someone write about before, but I just noticed the other day - how Blogger butcher the photos! Very blurry. But I guess the website will be laggy otherwise.

Damnit!

Obviously the icecream (with Daim!) and the Polly's (2 bags) I ate last week prevented me from loosing a little weight... *Oops*

I tried warm raspberries with wipped cream yesterday, yum yum. This will be my savior!

This day - So far, so good. :)

Tomorrow I will head off to work for a new plan. I will only work 50% now for 14 days. Extra long weekends ftw. ^^

I made soup/stew yesterday. And "Oopsies" - lchf-bread-like-thingies.

(I always fail with the diary products in food, so it doesn't look very good, but it is!) :D 

After playing around and digging in the yard, we always spend some time in "mattes" bed, so that all the dirt comes off... 

Mhm -.-

<3

These are the times you're really happy about having a washing machine in the basement.

Awesome clouds a warm night in may.

It looks like they're beeing sucked towards something... 

Or maybe a UFO just flew by and they got shaped that way? ;D

When time stands still,

Or flies by... ?

I cant decide. It's a time when everything is boring. It's a time when I'm tired 24/7.

I'm going to start work at a different place, but within the same company.

Hotel cleaning! Starting tomorrow. :)

I only have to take ONE bus to get there, plus walk about 50 meters, so it's very nice that way.

Now I can get up at 6.30 in the morning instead of 4.30. So hopefully I wont walk around like a super-tired-zombie all day!

Even if I couldnt afford it, I got a pair of Converse. Finally. But hey, good shoes lasts many years!

Yellow and pretty. Matches my camo-green spring jacket. ;)

Also got this scarf today at a secondhand store. See Catta? It's PINK! :D <3

Some pretty evening skies. :)

~ City Light meets Pink Sky ~

~ Foggy ~

~ Window View ~

~ Summer-y ~

We've had wonderful weather these last weeks!

They said there would be some rain and snow this weekend, but not much. Even if there will be - it will dry up fast, because the warm weather is not going anywhere. :)

Going to plant some veggies this weekend. All the flowers are already in the soil!

A sweater for Smulan

Almost 2 years ago I started to sew a sweater for Smulan, the sausage dog. Yesterday I finished it! 

It didnt work out the way I wanted it to and it didnt look they way I had pictured it to in my head, so I just left it there. Plus I have to be in a special mood to sew. I guess that is why it took 2 years. ;D

Smulan has gained some weight since then... but she could move freely in it and she seemed to like it! :)

I found another, much more simple, pattern on ze internetz - gonna try that next time I feel creative. 

The sunset the other day was pretty. :)

Oh - and we got a kitchen mouse from HELL that wont get caught in the trap!

4 times, FOUR(!!!), he has stolen the snack from it without getting stuck there. It's evil I tell you, EVIL! ...Or just sneaky.

I even swithed to another trap.

Salami, bacon, cheese, beef ...and then salami again. He's living the life. 

But today I havent checked the trap. I pretty sure the evil bastard is not in there. -.-

Evulness...

Things are looking brighter

The sun shows its' face more often now and it does not go down until late in the afternoon. :)
The 3 dogs and cat can feel it. Spring is coming. Even if there will be more cold weather and even snow, spring is on its' way!

And I got a job! :D Hurray for me!
It's a 1 year aployment where I will have all the benefits of a normal job. It's at a place where mostly sick or injured people work. Humm, that actually sounds worse than it is!

I got this chance because I broke down. I had enough and went to a psychologist and told her how I felt. Turns out I have social phobia. And anxiety, but that I knew.
I have always been a lone wolf, and I like it that way. Never really liked crowded places and I hate speaking in the phone, especially with people I dont know in person. Etc. Etc.
So this got me the opportunity to get a job. And I'm super happy about it!

I dont want to complain now that I have a job, but it's pretty damn mental how you need to be "sick" to get a chance like this.
Should'nt all people have the same choices/opportunities?

Anywho!
The renovating-furniture-fake-work did not turn out that great. It was getting really boring, sitting in a dusty, bad vetilated room all day - with no windows - painting. Painting. Painting....
Then there's some other reasons I wont mention.

But hey, screw that place - I got a job!

First on buying-list: Clothes and shoes!
Second: Drivers License!

And I will get a little closer to Norrlands skogar. ;)

Your Celtic Sign

I love it when the universe is right.

4 of march. I've always loved green and I knew I was a sea creature! ;D

My 20 min extra sleep in the morning is really nice, I didnt feel like I zombie when I woke up today. Hurray!

A little change

I've always hated the color blue. It's mostly cold and ugly.
But for some time back now, I started to like some blue colors... It all depends on what it is.
The sky is pretty in all its' colors, specially the nightsky - but a skyblue sweater or a skyblue bag is just horrible.
I love my metallic-black-blueish nailpolish.
I hate the light blue color of our kitchen walls.
I love my new blog colors. :) With a little purple and lime green. <3

Winter is finally here. It's frosty and very cold, wich means it's a little colder inside also, but it's totally worth it. It's so much lighter outside and not constantly wet from all the rain. And we have a tiny bit of snow too thanks to Sven. Weird name for a storm.

I lost another kilo btw. *Hurray for me* :P
Finally got new batteries for that thingy that you weigh yourself on. (Cant believe I got a B+ on my english in school!). I have been eating a lot of "no-no" food lately, (that's probably why I dont loose weight faster), but it's soon x-mas and I love saffron and  x-mas candy. xD I'll just start over, again, when x-mas and New Years Eve is over!

Sunset - the day after Sven was here.

Stormy and cold, but I still ran out there with no jacket to snap some shots. :) It was so pretty!

Early mornings

Off to fake-work soon. *Yaaawn*
The fake-work that is soon going to be a real job! :D 
I got some more info from the unemployment office - After 3 months this "practise"-thingy is going to turn into a real job, I will be hired for 6 months or 1 year so that I can start a thingy at A-kassan. Swenglish warning.
When I have collected this amount on A-kassan - and then get unemploeid again - I will still get money to survive, yay!

A not-so-late afternoon the other week <3

Yet another new start

I read a little more about the diet "LCHF" on ze internetz and it turns out I have been eating bad stuffz. :D Haha, so I started over... again. 

No fruit, no fruit yoghurt, less milk (if I want to loose weight) etc. And much more fat! I cant remember everything when I'm sitting here writing, but when I look in the kitchen I know what not to eat atleast! :P

Did you know that peanuts are not actually nuts? They're more like seeds. No good for LCHF'ers.

And I learned how to make "milk" out of eggs, for my coffee, have not tried it yet though.

Tonights' sunset.

Everything else is gray and that is what makes it beautiful.

 2 min later...

Longing for even colder weather, frost and snow.

Thanks Laura for tagging me btw. :) One day I will parcitipate, one day!

Jonna's Northern Lights

She did it again. The Northern Lights started dancing the nightskies already and it's not even winter.
When I live up there, in the north, I wont get much sleep at nights during the cold part of the year. I will sit there in the window, just waiting for the next dancing light. :) Hopefully I will have a decent camera by then too. :D

Pretties ---> http://jonnajinton.se/mer-norrskensbilder/

Just above the black treetops there is always a beautiful geenish light. It's freaking awesome! If I knew how to faint I would, lol.

Pink & Yellow

Sunset. All pictures from the same night.

It changes fast - I ran out a few times before I was satisfied. :)

Sigh. Work tomorrow. I really dont feel like going anywhere right now.

Movies, a blanket & candy - that's all I need!

I decided to get all the World of Warcraft novels. I want to read much more than I do, so I thought I'd start with something I know I like! Night elves & magic. :)